The events that unfolded felt like they happened in a blur. I was conscious, but my memories are fragmented—brief, vivid flashes of moments. I remember being placed in the ambulance, while Halyna was airlifted away in a helicopter.
Was Halyna Still Alive?
At that time, I wasn’t sure about Halyna’s condition. It’s not my place to delve deeply into the personal aspects of her life, especially since she had a family—her husband, son, parents, and sister—who are more intimately connected to this tragedy.
Observations of Alec Baldwin
I can’t provide details on Alec Baldwin’s actions following the incident. My focus was on my immediate experience and those who were directly involved in assisting me.
Learning About Halyna’s Death
I discovered Halyna’s passing while in the hospital’s ER. The news came as a profound shock, a moment of devastation that’s hard to articulate. The emptiness and grief I felt were overwhelming.
How I Learned the News
I’d rather keep the specifics of how I found out to myself. The revelation was deeply crushing, marking the beginning of a long period of grief and disbelief.
The Aftermath
Surviving the incident didn’t bring me comfort initially. That night, I remember wishing I wouldn’t wake up, hoping that bleeding out might be a release from the pain. It was an incredibly dark period, filled with despair.
Waking Up to Reality
When I awoke the next morning, it was a harsh realization that this was not a nightmare but a grim reality. The day marked the start of navigating through immense grief and trying to piece together a life that felt shattered.
Family and Location
At the time of the incident, my family was not in New Mexico—they were back in California. My wife flew out to be with me, and I was relieved that my children weren’t present. They were younger then—my oldest was 13, and my youngest was 8. I’m grateful they were spared from witnessing the full scope of the tragedy, though they knew something significant had happened. My older child showed resilience, while my younger one struggled with confusion and fear, which has lingered over time.
Matt Hutchins, Halyna’s husband, displayed remarkable strength. Despite his immense loss, he came to the scene to ensure everyone was taken care of. His ability to focus on others, even in such a personal tragedy, was extraordinary and moving. It’s a testament to his character and the profound nature of his grief and compassion,